Yep, it’s done.
I’m SO excited, and VERY happy, and a teeny tiny liiiiiittle bit nervous.
I’ve been blogging for three and a half years now, and I’ve just reached the point where I feel like I’m going around in circles. Chloe (The Little Plum) published a fab post yesterday about this, which really resonated with me.
At the moment, I’m basically just posting to stay afloat, if that makes sense. I’m not shooting the photos I really want to, I’m not writing the posts I really want to, I’m just kind of bimbling along doing what I’ve done for years, without pushing boundaries or trying anything new.
I’m comfortable. I’m comfortable in my blog, and comfortable in my content, and comfortable in my job. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing. I’ve been a receptionist for as long as I’ve been a blogger. It’s easy work. I like my colleagues, I love my manager, and it pays well. But I’m bored and it’s time to move on.
And since this blog is the only job I can really think of that will make me happier than where I am now, then that’s what I’m going to do.
Fortunately, since we moved to the new flat, our mortgage payments are a lot lower than the rent was on our old place (moving just slightly out of actual London helped a lot). So my outgoings are also a lot smaller than they were just six months ago. And combined with an increase in blog and Instagram opportunities, it means that I’m in a good financial place to give it a go.
I’m also lucky to have the most supportive boyfriend in the world, which obviously helps. Gary and I both know that this is a risk. Things could all go tits up and I could very quickly realise that I’ve made a bad choice, leaving my bank account empty in the process. If that does happen, Gary’s income could keep us afloat and pay the bills for a little while until I can find another full-time job. I’m very independent, and I really don’t like the idea of him having to support us both financially, but I’d be lying if I said that knowing that cushion is there doesn’t make me feel a bit safer about taking my giant leap of a metaphorical cliff.
But hey, what’s life without a little metaphorical cliff jumping? In five/ten/twenty years time, I’d rather say that I tried and failed, then say that I just stayed safe and happy in a little bubble, forever wondering about what might have been.
Honestly? I think it’s going to be brilliant, and I’m 100% confident that I can make this a success. I’m the most annoyingly indecisive person in the world, and just the fact that my gut is so sure that this is the right decision, makes me feel certain that I’m ready.
So here we are. I have a giant tick next to the first item on my To Do In 2018 list, and from the 5th of February I will be a full-time content creator.
Here’s to new years and new beginnings and taking risks. ♥
PS. I’ve got another post planned for later this week, with more about my plans and goals and dreams, but I just wanted to put together a little post to fill you in on the news. It’s been a while since I last wrote a life update, and I kinda miss filling you in on the details. I definitely think that’s something I’m going to try and do more of this year!