MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 3 DAYS.
Last year around this time, I got a bit introspective and wrote this post about feminism. I’m still quite proud of that post. It’s one of my favourites I think.
But this year I’m feeling much more… outrospective.
(Is that even a word?)
(It’s not. I just googled it.)
(It is the name of album by a band called Faithless though, if that helps anyone?)
What I mean is that, last year, I was super focused on myself. On the inside. On how I felt and who I was and what I was doing with my life.
I felt young and inexperienced and a bit lost about all of the above questions. I didn’t know where I was going, I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I had no direction or purpose. So I focused on trying to center myself and my opinions.
And this year?
I feel like I’ve discovered a huge chunk of who Katy is. And I’ve found that, despite all her faults (and trust me, there are a LOT), I actually quite like Katy.
There’s also the really weird feeling that time seems to have sped up somehow. And that nothing has changed.
But at the same time, EVERYTHING AROUND ME has changed.
On the one hand, I’m still at the same ol’ job. Still writing the same ol’ blog. Still loving the same ol’ boyfriend. Still giggling with the same ol’ friends.
But on the other hand…
Well, first of all, I’ve moved house. (Sorry. One day I’ll stop mentioning it. I Promise.)(Maybe.)
I live in the loveliest flat that I could ever have imagined. I love the area. I love the space and light and awesome housemates. It’s like a nest of sunshine and happiness that recharges my batteries in a way that I’d forgotten rooms could do.
Then there’s the fact that the above-mentioned beloved boyfriend will be joining us in the flat as of next month. EEK. I’m excited but also kinda nervous. I’ve never lived with a boyfriend before. If that’s not a big change I don’t know what is!
Next, my blog. My blog has grown into something I’m bursting with pride and happiness about.
And I’ve finally started taking steps to make it an actual business. I’ve registered as a sole trader. I’ve taken on my first big collaboration work. I have a (sort of) organisation schedule. I mean, I HAVE EVEN MADE SPREADSHEETS.
Then, you guys (YOU GUYS ♥) nominated me for a blog award.
I made the top 5 and tomorrow I’m going up to Leeds to attend the awards ceremony and I’m so excited and nervous, I can’t even explain.
I’m going to be able to meet some of the amazing ladies I talk to/stalk every day on the Internet, but never really thought I’d get a chance to meet in real life. Just the thought of it is making me giddy!
I’ve made so many amazing new friends in the blogging world. Foodie friends, fashiony friends, lifestyle-y friends and, of course, my special Bangarang pals.
The ladies I know I can
call on Whatsapp at any time of day, and they’ll be there with shouts of encouragement, words of wisdom, and plenty of emojis and hilarity. They’re all incredibly strong and smart and sassy-as-hell women, and I’m so proud to call them friends.
I’m also proud that I’ve managed to maintain my friendships with people I only see once or twice a year: my amazing uni girls, friends I used to work with, and my school friends from Spain (who I’ve known since I was 3). People I still love dearly, and whose friendships I still treasure.
Despite the long-distances (and admittedly not-so-long-distances!) between us, we still manage to catch up occasionally, and every time we do, we’re always able to pick up exactly where we left off.
I think that’s the sign of a true friendship. ♥
NAW YOU GUYS. I’M FEELING SO HAPPY AND SQUISHY.
23 has been an amazing year and I cannot WAIT to see what 24 holds for me.
Sorry this blog is a bit all over the place, but that’s just where my brain’s been at for the past 2 days, and I needed to get it all out.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to try and find an outfit for tomorrow.
(Yeah. I don’t have one. What was that I was saying about how I’m an organised adult now? WELL HAHAHA. Fooled ya.)